Could It be Him?

    Dave was pretty fucked up after he got taken when we were kids. He came back and didn't talk to any of us. He stayed in his room and didn't come over on Saturday afternoons anymore. He turned into a real weirdo. He got bullied real badly when he got back. He shut down big time. I never understood, as a kid, why. Jimmy and I's parents told us bad stuff had happened to him, but we never really asked questions. As I grew up I found out what happened during those four days Dave was gone. Now I kind of understand why he was screwed up in to the head. Growing up, as a teenager and even as an adult, I thought Dave being messed up would go away, but when he was a suspect in the Katie Marcus murder case, I realized something like that sticks with a person.
   
     Now almost 20 year later he is a suspect in one of our childhood best friend's, daughter's, murder. How is that even possible? I would have never even taken another look at Dave if Whitey didn't bring it to my attention. All of this shit is crazy. Dave being at the same bars, the blood in his car, the bullshit story he told me of where he was that night. It looks like we might have a killer on our hands. I know Dave had his innocence taken from him, but I never would've thought he was a murderer.


.  Mystic River: Dave Gets in the Car.  2003.  7 Nov. 2013 <http://www.anyclip.com/movies/mystic-river/>.

     

Mystic River - Movie Trailer

Zuguidemovietrailers.  Mystic River - Movie Trailer .  15 April 2010.  7 Nov. 2013 <http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avqatv_lbuk>.

The Hardest Part

Telling a victim's family they have lost a loved one is always difficult, but telling Jimmy it was Katie was the hardest thing I've have had to do in a long time. He knew something was up, she hadn't shown up at Nadine's first communion, she hadn't been heard from for over 12 hours. When the sirens went whaling down the street past the church, he had to have known. When I saw the body, all mangled, in the ground, before I even knew it was Katie, a chill ran up and down my spine. There was something different about this case. It just didn't feel right. I was hoping it wasn't Katie and I wouldn't have to tell one of my childhood best friends his daughter died. I had never been close to a victim’s family before. I had known people from the neighborhood and the mini mart on the corner but never on a personal level, like Jimmy. When Jimmy knew it was Katie and let out the screams and words of horror and disbelief, it scarred me forever. For nights on end every time I closed my eyes I could see the look of terror and hear Jimmy's screams. I never want to experience anything like that, ever again.


Agbaje, Shawler .  Movie #90 - Mystic River.  18 February  2012.  7 November 2013 <http://ajshawler.blogspot.com/2012/02/movie-90-mystic-river.html>.

Come Back

    I hate when Lauren calls. She just calls and doesn't say a damn word. I know it's her, I can hear her breathing. The same short, quite breaths I listened to while I tried to fall asleep next to her for so many years. What's the point? She still knows exactly how to get under my skin. She left me.  I know I drove her away, but we could have worked it out. I loved her with all my heart, I always will. I still want her to come home. She was my sanity. I could tell her anything. It destroys me every day knowing she is out there alone, with no one when she has me waiting at home for her. This baby Lauren is carrying, whether it is mine of not I will treat that baby like it is my own. It makes no difference to me, they are my family and I need them back.

      Sometimes I like when Lauren calls. It reminds me she's still there and she still thinks about me. I wish she would say something to me. I know she wants to and I know there is so much to be said. Every time she calls I wonder what is going through her mind and why she calls but says nothing. I wonder where she is and what she's doing, how the baby is and how she's feeling.

       Everyone asks why I answer Lauren's calls. Honestly, I answer because I know, one day, she will talk to me, I don't know when that day will come, but eventually, it will.

.  Phone Off the Hook.  .  7 November 2013 <http://www.visualphotos.com/image/2x2381165/phone_off_the_hook>.

He's a Cold Hearted Killer

I always knew Jimmy Marcus was no good but I never thought he was capable of murder. Jimmy was always getting into trouble as a kid. We did all kinds of things together. For God's sake we started smoking cigarettes when we were twelve and drinking beers at fourteen. We loved to get into trouble and we never got caught, so hell, we messed with everyone, from the richest people in the Points to the poorest people in the Flats. We loved to screw with 'em all. When we got into high school we stayed close but smartened up a bit, knowing the law wasn't on our side. After that we lost touch for a long while. We ran into each other at the Mini Mart about 8 years back and since then we've had a few beers together every now and again. Then all this shit happened with his daughter, Katie, and I got a real feel for who Jimmy is now a days. Living in the Flats, rumors have been surrounding Jimmy in the murder of Just Ray Harris for years. I always had my suspicions and now reconnecting with Jimmy has shown me a side of him I have never seen. I don't doubt for a second that he popped a couple of bullets into Just Ray to shut him up.


alysonkrier.  Mystic River .  4 Jan. 2011.  7 Nov. 2013 <http://thebestpictureproject.wordpress.com/2011/01/04/mystic-river/>.